The universe is expanding… no wait, that’s me

I had shorts that fit a week and a half ago. They don’t fit now. Eeps!
And a random stranger asked me, “is it a boy?” I was taken aback. It just hadn’t happened yet. So it begins..
The movement inside is cool and funny.
When I walk up stairs.. I feel out of breath. *blush*
Sometimes I think, nine months is not enough time!! Besides, I spent the first month in total ignorance… and the second month in shock ;)
Glucose test tomorrow. Child birthing classes mid june.
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~So here and there I’m picking up some free stuff. I got a bag of maternity clothes, and there are these pants. They WIN. Meaning, they’re really ugly. Brown plaid and did I mention they’re ugly? I saw them and immediately grimaced. I showed rob (“wanna see my ugly pants?”) and he saw them across the room and I think he said, “say no more.” It reminds me of the time in high school - we gave blake these ugly short/overalls as a joke. I need another blake in my life to bequeath this. ;)

~All of these baby books seem to have a superiority complex – that their method is the best way, and the other methods are butt-awful. Hmm. Makes for a lot of confusion. And guilt even. Then again, a lot of diet/health books are like that too. Remind me - you just gotta do what works for you.

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Dear ________,
Today is the day after mother’s day. In 4 months, we’ll meet. What a strange anticipation. I mean, I’m carrying you, and you haven’t been apart from me, but I don’t know anything about you. Well, that’s what’s in store - the adventure of raising you. The world has so much to offer. I hope that life isn’t too hard on you. Even though that’s a strange thing to hope for, because that’s how character is formed – out of adversity. I want so much for you, for you to seize the day and live a life full of joy. I want you to know that God made you perfect. Even if you don’t think it’s true. God loves you, your dad loves you, and I love you. Don’t you forget.
Till September,
Mom

week 23, 11 inches

everything I say is subject to change

So I’ll cautiously say I’m peachy. ;) I have pregzilla moments, mostly when faced with personal questions I don’t want to answer (how much have you gained? my doctors know but I ain’t telling you) and strange advice from knowitalls (you shouldn’t go to the doctor too much!!). I’m feeling movement and it’s very encouraging. Was nervous about not feeling anything b4. I’m back to feeling ravenous. I eat but the stomach will growl an hour later. Also feeling weird about body image. I have a friend who is also a first time pregnant chick, so we commiserate about that. I don’t feel cute-pregnant. Nowadays I feel… awkward-pregnant. I’m still trying to wear nonmaternity clothing. Heh, so I’m adding to the awkwardness. Since a lot of my tops won’t cover this potbelly - not for long, anyway. I justify it – I’d rather save the maternity clothing for when I really need it. There’s not a huge variety, so I’d rather not get bored so quickly.
Sleeping on my side isn’t my favorite thing, but I’ll survive.
I’m trying to think of things that I want to do before September. What do I need to get out of my system? That’s feasible, I mean. No tattoos or skydiving. ;) trying to think of anyplace I’d want to travel to, but even then, I’m kinda blasé about it. Maybe I just want to be extra-lazy and savor it. I want to hang out with friends who I never see. At least before I go MIA. Which may as well be a warning to y’all. i already have antisocial tendencies. ;)
Rob’s been great. I thought you all should know. =)
week 22, one pound! 10.9 inches

for the record

i weighed 2900 grams (6 pounds, 6.29 ounces) at birth. rob weighed 8 pounds 8 ounces.
i felt a little snippy this weekend. at times. i'll leave it at that. :b
21, 12 ounces, 10 1/2 inches

edit: article mc sent me: i don't crave charcoal. don't think my cravings have increased since prepregnancy. this is the #1 question i've been asked. i'm still funny about meat, i guess. my uncraving. i don't eat a whole lot at a time. and i'd rather it be mixed up with other things. like in a burrito. and i get killer leg cramps.

eeps!

on the rainy monday, i was on ashburn road when the car two ahead of me braked suddenly. so everyone had to brake suddenly. from behind, i hear this SCREEEEEEECH!!!!!!! and i'm bracing myself. you could see smoke/steam from the back tires, and i think s/he hydroplaned, too.
yesterday, at the grandmart parking lot, i was leaving, and i saw a car park really quickly. i was getting near where he was and i had to yield (oncoming car), and he started to back out really quickly. i honked. he braked in time.
toooo close.
so i feel unlucky that i'm in these situations (twice in one week!) but lucky cuz i didn't get hit. it's a lot more nervewracking these days. i mean, nobody wants to get in an accident. but really. i'd rather it not happen.

today is bring your child to work day. i bring mine everyday. *groan*

encroaching

Okay, this baby bump is taking up space. I don’t really feel fat (though sometimes I do). I don’t really feel beautiful (though sometimes I do). I feel a little silly because all weekend I wore maternity pants and all weekend I was pulling them up. Loose still.
And I have the feeling that my body will never be the same again. Goodbye perfect legs! Farewell perfect boobs! Bwahahaha..
half way! holy...fairy godmother!! ;)

20 weeks, 10.5 ounces, 10 inches

Abdominal earthquakes

Got our last ultrasound today. Lots and lots of pictures (one NSFW; heehee), though many of them were of the if-you-say-so variety (e.g. "...and this is the bladder..."). I wonder how much training it takes to tell all that stuff apart. We couldn't get a good profile shot, so the technician tried shaking Joo's belly a few times. The screen went berserk; I wondered if it felt like an earthquake inside. Kid wouldn't be bothered.

So yeah, ultrasound is one of the coolest things ever. Oh, and so is health insurance. We've dropped $30 on medical expenses so far. The pile of statements we get tells us that the actual cost is... a little more.

The next time we see our firstborn, it won't be on a black-and-white screen...

19, 8.5 ounces, 6 inches
how do you really explain this science fiction going on inside of me? i think i've felt movement. it's... different. i read this blurb about talking to your baby. awwww. less potty mouth, more singing!! :b

girl or boy?

~we'll start taking wagers. winners will receive... articles of clothing that no longer fit me. :b next ultrasound in 11 days!
~i get annoyed that girls clothes are all pink and boys clothes are all blue. it's an uphill battle, right?? think of all the sociological implications!!! though if we have a girl, and you happen to find a blue dress, i'd give ya mad props. :b
~two more vials of blood required of me. but i was only able to give one. such a zombie existence i lead. i hope cletus has rob's blood spurting ability. i'm just *that* chill.
~my version of sappy - listening to this song, and thinking of stuff, i maaaay have sniffled. thanks rivers.
Little one, how long I've waited here/Waited for so many lonely years
Nobody ever could make me smile/'Till you came round with your pretty style
And I will love you so, and I will love you so
'Cause I was made for you, and you were made for me
And that is all I know, you're all that I can see
'Cause I was made for loving you/And all the little things you do/Remind me who I am inside
Happness is such a fickle thing/Nothing compared to what you can bring
You can bring meaning to what I do/That is why I want to be with you....
17, 5 ounces, 5 inches
18, 7 ounces, 5.5 inches